Friday, January 23, 2009

We all feel the rain

Hi there ..How are you doing ?

I am writing this for you, to let you know that you are not alone.
You are no stranger to me, you are my friend whom I haven't met.
And no matter what you think now, I am your friend.

Are you going through something which you don't deserve?
Does it feel heavy in your chest?
Does it pain so hard that you cannot even carryon with daily chores?
Do you think no one could understand?

I don't know why, I can feel your pain,
..we all feel the rain.
Beneath this apparent separation we are one.
Doesnt matter what you believe
Single cell amoeba or Adam,
We are from the one.
We are one

As I write this and as you read, there is energy connection happening between us.
Our energies filling each other in many dimensions.
You can call it Love, Empathy, Affection or care.

So go on.. Try me ..Let it flow out of you into me
I promise to listen
I promise to lend a shoulder if you need.
I promise there wont be judgments
I promise no solution for there is none required

The Pain you feel right now.
Let it be part of you, be comfortable with it.
This is the time to cry
This is the time to feel down,
Don't fight the feeling, nothing wrong with it
Don't have to deny it

Its strong to be your self
Its stronger to accept the situation
Understand what you resist, persists.

Its ok
Its much better now
Its now easier for you to let go , its time.
let it wash away like the sand on the waves ..


Let it go
If it has happened
it happened for a reason
If it hasn't
It never meant to be

Let it go my friend ..We all feel the rain..Sun will shine again

I have no idea why I wrote this.
I hope it makes sense to someone out there.
May be effect of this song by will young.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Before I die

I have been wondering about this quiet a while. what are the things I would really like to do If I am going to die tomorrow?

When I read Mitch albom books about death and the book "before I die" by jenny downham I had it in my mind. thanks to my friend's blog it has given me push to finally jot it down.

If tomorrow were to be my last day these are the 15 things I would like to do.
And why 15 ? Its just came up to that count. But I am contended with these things.

1. Fly to India to hug my mom and dad. Tell my brother even after all the fight I love him so much.

2. Get a pet - Golden retriver bit grown puppy - and play with it

3. Ask my mom to do few of my favourite dishes like "Keerai kuttu","paruppu" "vatha kulambu", "semiya payasam" and eat to hearts content

4. Set up an Marian aquarium at home.

5. Go out with my best friend G to Spencer plaza for shopping in bike.
I would drive my favourite bike without helmet very fast in beach road LOL.
I would buy all that I like, I wanna wear funky trendy clothes as well as sherwani
Buy mom most expensive silk saree and dad a adorable kurtha
Buy my brother a bottle of Bacardi/blazer and SCOTT glasses

6. Write a note to all my loved ones in a scented card. Tell you all, How much I love you guys and how much difference you have made in my life by being part of it.

7.Get a photo shoot done. Solo and with my family, friends and dog. I won’t be there to see it but I would like one. They can keep it in funeral - I have seen funny pictures being blowed up to keep in funeral, I want mine to be the best shot :)

8. Go to Sai baba temple in Neelankarai and sit before him for 10 minutes, closed eyes
Say thanks to all that he has given me in my life.

9. I would say the truth the whole day, wont worry to get judged wont worry to be nice. Just the truth

10. Eat falooda ice cream in ranganathan street and pani puri in road side shop.

11. Go to Visually challenged study centre in Tnagar - read for my friends for one last time. Give them the most adorable clothes, Chocolates and all the money in my bank account

12. Ensure all my savings/Insurance go to mom and dad.

13. In the evening go to the marina beach watch sunset with the dog, just me and dog.

14. I want to have nice long kiss with my X one last time, and say thanks for letting me do that LOL: P

15. Come home, nice long, oil bath from mom, wonderful dinner. Light candles everywhere, switch off all the lights, Bombay jayashree "Shravanam" playing. I Would lie on my moms lap , and sleep :P I wont care about being in heaven, for I have already lived a day of it!