My Thoughts Keyboarded

Leaf succulent are plants that grow in extreme conditions of the dessert. To be precise, they stay dormant for most of their life, waiting for a random cloud to get lost and pour down some love. Within few hours of rain, they grow, bloom and store as much as water they can in their fleshy inside. A bed of colorful flowers in the middle of the dessert! Then again the dormant cycle begins, it could be weeks, months or even years until it can rain, yet they wait patiently. I came across this, in kid's encyclopedia that I was reading out to 6 year old Sam, my landlord's kid. "Is the plant sick?" he asked me , tad worried. It took me couple of seconds to realise why he is asking me that. Sam's mom is a nurse and patient can only mean one thing. It's been just couple of weeks since I moved in here, but all it took for Sam and Angeline to befriend me was just a smile. Angeline is turning 3 tomorrow, and had little idea about the discussion, yet she enjoyed sitti...

"How long is one second chichu mama?" my nephew asked me, without lifting his head from the jigsaw puzzle we were playing. I looked up wondering what to say.  "hmmm.. I dont know kutti, why dont you tell me how long it is?". He smiled at me, with his iam-gonna-make-something-up-look. He held his two tiny hands apart as if he is holding an invisible ball and said "this much". The next ten seconds were long enough to pick him up and swirl him around. He put his arms out and pretended to be a jet plane. We crash landed on the bed and giggled for long. "NEXT.." the voice was loud enough to jolt me back to where I was. I was standing in the queue to student service at my college. It took one soft drink, 28 pages of Mitch albom's book and a day dream - in total a good two and half hours before I reached the counter.While the short Filipino lady waited impatiently, I fumbled through my valet and handed her my student ID.   " hi , I just finis...

2 am saturday night sitting awake with laptop on I have thoughts to fight and gauge whats right So I keep thinking on and on tonight. Projects to be done and books to be read but I gaze on cause there are things to be said. cheerful as gay and a smile ear to ear thats what people say but they dont see it clear. My heart is full but my valet is light for love is all i can give at will till my time is right. I keep forgetting its the material world I still keep believing that love could mend and all we need is some time to spend. I walk with dreams and sleep with nightmares I chase them all day like a dog and they croak all night like a frog. With millions friends to help and million hearts to cheer I keep hoping things would be better Its not easy when u give it all up for what u love may not fill today's cup I am tired and may lose to those black thoughts on the loose for words killed my smiles today and laughing so loud, but behold...

Dear you, Cant believe I am writing this from Singapore. At one point i really packed my dream in a big suitcase and kept it  in the loft. Was walking around with clown over my head. The visa , the students loan, I couldn't wrap my mind around the whole thing. I am now a Master degree student in Raffles Singapore! Feels great to say it, even more to write it.  The feeling is bittersweet, still settling. Change of country and new college , new syllabus, profs, class mates whoaaa! And the best thing that happened to me is the feeling of being loved by my Friends! I am really amazed by the generosity and kindness they have showed me. I had to show a bank balance of the total fee required to finish the course for the visa process.  I was depending on the loan to come , which would take days to finish. I made few phone calls and money just flowed into my account from everywhere. In matter of few days I have become a privileged customer of ICICI Bank :P ...

Its almost the 10th time I have opened this window to type a new post. The first line of the post is like the opening sentence to the girl in the bar. It might either go way better than you think or fall flat on your face. And then comes the second line, now that you got the attention, its important to say something smart. Have you played angry birds ?  ( ok not so smart but questions do help). If you are not familiar with this iPhone game you might as well ask my mother ( she is yet to return my iPod touch, thanks to gaming addiction).  I always found the direct hit on the pigs or the castle wont help to finish the game. The trick lies in finding the exact point, when hit would start a domino type demolition effect. A catalyst shot for the ripple effect. Many ideologies say your current state of life depends on your current state of mind , which is sum of your positive and negative thoughts. By tipping the scale of positive th...

Last night, I remembered the time I did the reverse bungee in Singapore. I was sitting in this open capsule, all strapped up to be shot to 700 meters up in the air. I looked at the crowed gathered around and many of them cheered me while the count down began. I asked myself why they would cheer me. It’s not like I am helping humanity or giving them a free beer. Then I realized for many it’s something they wish, but never do. They are applauding me for facing the fear, the one they too poses. They can empathise the fight within and cheering me for victory over it. At the last minute, I heard my heart beating faster and saw a blurred image (partly owing to the fancy smoke beneath the capsule). Then I told myself “I let go”, for there is nothing I can control about it. Within seconds I was in the air, fear reached its maximum threshold and adrenaline rush took over. While the excitement can be explained in many ways, I believe it was because of the internal shift. I crossed the boundary...