My Thoughts Keyboarded

2 am saturday night sitting awake with laptop on I have thoughts to fight and gauge whats right So I keep thinking on and on tonight. Projects to be done and books to be read but I gaze on cause there are things to be said. cheerful as gay and a smile ear to ear thats what people say but they dont see it clear. My heart is full but my valet is light for love is all i can give at will till my time is right. I keep forgetting its the material world I still keep believing that love could mend and all we need is some time to spend. I walk with dreams and sleep with nightmares I chase them all day like a dog and they croak all night like a frog. With millions friends to help and million hearts to cheer I keep hoping things would be better Its not easy when u give it all up for what u love may not fill today's cup I am tired and may lose to those black thoughts on the loose for words killed my smiles today and laughing so loud, but behold...

That’s some title with a forbidden word isn’t? But I promise by the end of this post you would appreciate it better. Swaram and Anu both awarded and tagged me to write 10 honest things about myself. Considering I write every post straight from heart, Please excuse me for writing only 5 points. 1. I have a strange habit of proof reading after publishing my posts. I somehow feel the urge to publish as soon as I have written down my thoughts. I am also particular about extra spaces between paragraphs. Every new post would undergo at least two to three changes after they are published. 2. I am still in touch with my ex. We were friends for a long time and I don’t want to miss my friend especially during the rough tides. My love is totally cool with it. Sometimes I wonder what I ever did to deserve such unconditional ever understanding love. 3. I firmly believe Julie never had a bath before. I want to give him one and not sure how he would react. I am just waiting to get more comfor...

Today I missed my train In a split second The head rush Made me bent down and I gasped Instead of a "kick in the air" and "oh my shit” I smiled and tapped on my head Am I crazy? I answer " Yes honey" To my manager's call I look up and admire street lamps Like they are xmas's fall Am I lost? I mess up things and blush! A hand on my mouth And a smile so silly I keep counting them To narrate, for they seem so funny! Am I mad? I am... Lost in your thoughts, Crazy in love, and Mad about you. I keep writing about all of them So while waiting, I can hum These songs, that lingers On your eyes and lips Until the time, mine meet yours’

My heels drummed as I ran All the way through the platform To the train doors which were closing on I squeezed myself in, holding a grin Hugging the door, that got glued to my face I was is sweat, waiting for aircon's grace Couple of stops later, I found a corner to be Still sweating, but it didn’t bothered me Ipod offered a love song And left a smile on my lips, It should be dedicated to the man I belong I didn’t know a thing about you then But I knew you were the one How could I explain about the feeling that fled When you too wanted me, as much as I did "Do I have to get down here to go to the hospital?" The old man's question brought me to present "Yes sir, this is the one" I replied Realising I too have to get down in that instant I helped him with his bag "Althea" said the hospital tag I introduced myself as we walked He seemed so happy to have talked "Are you going to hospital as well?" He asked "Yes sir I am visiting a friend...

The first time at the coffee shop I met you through a common friend You said you were here on a short trip And I felt no interesting grip I did not like you, you were different Compared to man of my dreams But here I am writing about you Am I in crazy or so it seems I had no intention of seeing you again But found myself sitting next to you In the movie along with friends While I wondered at the screen so bright You held my hand a little tight With mixed feeling I managed a smile Everything felt normal only for a while Then we went to restaurant nearby Where the lights were low They had their tables outside Under the moonlight glow Could be because of the lousy movie I found you interesting Could be because of the drink mailbu I found myself relaxing Could be because of the full moon I found the night charming Then you kissed me I closed my eye and I felt like crying No questions & no explanations I rested my head on your shoulders And my face on your chest As you stroked my hair I...

As I moved in through the party All I can hear was laughter Nothing funny was said or done They are just drunk and having fun I brushed people and made my way Searching for a friendly face Smiling at stranger's gaze Had a drink to ease my stressful day Standing in a group were my friends Probably talking about market trends Or about which celebrity did with which one May be that’s what interests everyone Does sex and money is their only priority I wonder Then my silence is broken by a tap on the shoulder "Hey, Happy birthday dear" I wished and hugged her She grabbed the flowers from my hand with a funny smile "As usual you are late" she pinched me gleefully "ahh.." I moaned surprising myself, little loudly I was pleading my friend to let me free Then I saw you looking at me It felt right inside me, your look Like a first ray of the sun through the dense forest You smiled and turned around I felt like lost and found I can’t even write what it felt li...

I am made according to HIS perfection I like to be light I love to be everywhere I demand to be free I hate to be pressured Sometimes I hug the lovely stream Bubbling up with energy and gleam Sometimes I make friends with dust and fire Destroying everything with my attire I fall in love with humans as I go I embrace their chest and touch lovely hearts Plants and trees love me for sure Their care makes me divine and pure I need energy to flow in less liked areas I create energy when I flow across my favourite fields At times I carry lovely fragrance At times I carry poison too I change according to the situation People fathom about my character Not knowing I am just the reactor At times I am calm I flow gently, cooling everyone At times I am violent Blowing everything, leaving no one Sooner or later I return to my self I am representation of God My presence is less noted However my absence never desired

Today I woke up with a big smile It’s Sunday so I slept a while Another day to live before the 5 day routine I squint my eye at the clock, its eleven fifteen I saw dots flying everywhere, It felt different, it was good different I squint again, Aah! Cells at the back of retina,my mind concluded And they disappeared, like dancers of show that ended I look to the window by my bed Late morning sunlight through white curtain Have filled the room with lovely flow I turned off the air-condition, to feel the warmth of the glow No mood to get off the bed I look at the ceiling decor It’s Peaceful, except for the feeble sound of TV next door. A nice music, may be MTV I know this song, Jason Mraz - I am yours I could hear it better now, Little tuning of mind is all it takes, I stare at the sunlight again I could see teeny tiny dust particles Flying up and down, Moving here and there Coming alive in the beam of light I yawn as I sit up My friend was sitting in the table nearby, Waiting for me in ...

How much more money you need, to call yourself rich ? How many clothes you need, to feel like celebrity? How much young you need to be, to feel youthful? What you need to have, to feel Blessed ? What official position would mark you Successful? What moment can bring you that happiness and satisfaction ? Which day all the "good things" can be started/completed ? Which time is the quality time to spend with loved ones? Who can be your "perfect" partner? Why vacation has to be in Summer? Why your hobbies and passion needs to wait till retirement? ... .. . How many sunsets you need to see to feel alive ?

When sunset left you darkness Stumbling you to emptiness When nothing can bring you light I will be holding candle for you When the thunder is deafening And your calling is unheard When you can’t even talk to yourself I will be listening to you When the clouds above pouring down Blinding your sight around When you find everything drenched I will be lending tissues to you When your grounds are shaky And your shoes keep slipping When nothing stops you from falling I will be catching you in my arms When the closure is proposed All the doors you knock are closed When you feel tired and lost I will be carrying you home I will be standing on the cliff with open arms Where the clouds come to rest I have saved a seat in the wooden bench Where the streams flows on white sands I will be waiting for very long If you decide to come along If you decide to come along This is my promise, on and on Our life will be brand new, When I am here for you

அவளை பற்றி நினைத்தால் கவிதை தான் வருகிறது கவிதையை பற்றி நினைத்தால் வேறு என்ன வரும்? சீக்கிரம் முடிந்ததிலும் நெஞ்சில் நிறைந்ததிலும் அவளும் ஹைக்கூ கவிதையும் ஒன்றுதான்!

ஓரே.. ஒரு முறை என்னைக் கூப்பிடு, என் பெயராவது உன் உதடுகளை.. ஓரே.. ஒரு முறை என்னைப் பார், விழிகளின் வழியே உன்னுள் ஒரு நொடி நான். நிலவில் வசிப்பது சாத்தியமாம் உன்னில் நான்? நிலவினால் தான் அலைகள் உருவாகின்றன என் நெஞ்சிலும் கூட. எண்ணிக் கொண்டு இருக்கிறேன்... இப்பொழுது என்ன செய்கிறாய் என எப்பொழுதும். எப்பொழுதாவது என்னை எண்ணுவாய் என இப்பொழுதும். மின்னலைப் பார்த்ததில், கண் மட்டுமல்ல இதயமும் போனது. மின்னலுக்காக வானம் திறந்துதான் இருக்கிறது என் இதயமும்.

வாழ்க்கை எனக்கு பலமுறை வெறுத்து போனதுண்டு காலம் கூட கனமாய் தோன்றிய நாட்களுண்டு வாரம் ஒரு முறை இவர்களுக்காக படிக்க போவதை மட்டும் வாடிக்கை ஆக்கிக் கொண்டேன்.. எனக்காக கடந்த மூன்று வருடங்களாய் வாழ்கைக் கல்வி கற்றுக் கொண்டிருக்கிறேன் ஆணியால் எழுதுவதால் என்னவோ என் நெஞ்சில் ஆழப் பதிந்துவிட்டார்கள் சூரியன் கூட நிலவுக்கு வெளிச்சம் தந்த பெருமையை அறிந்திருக்கலாம், இவர்கள் பெருமை அறியாத, வேண்டாத சூரியன்கள் இவர்கள் எனக்கு உபதேசம் செய்ததில்லை இவர்கள் வாழும் உபதேசங்கள் இவர்கள் நான் படிக்க கேட்பவர்கள் எனக்கு பாடம் கற்றுத்தருபவர்கள் தம் முகத்தை தாம் பார்த்ததில்லை இவர்கள்தாம் என் முகத்தை எனக்குக் காட்டியவர்கள் பார்க்காமலேயே என்னை வரைந்தவர்கள் தடி கொண்டு நடந்தே எனக்கு வழி காட்டியவர்கள் கண்ணில்லாமலேயே என் கண் திறந்தவர்கள் சினிமா, ஜீன்ஸ், காதல் போன்றவற்றுக்கு மட்டுமே, கல்லூரி வாழ்க்கையை அர்ப்பணித்தவர்கள் மத்தியில் இவர்களும் படிக்கிறார்கள் அதே புத்தகம், அதே பாடங்கள், அதே வாய்ப்பை தேடித்தராத போதும்! தன் காலில் நிற்க வேண்டி ஒரு போராட்டம் அமைதியாகவே, ஒவ்வோரு நாளும் இருட்டில் இருந்து கொண்டும் உழைக்கிறார்கள் வெள...

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