My Thoughts Keyboarded

Happy birthday Singapore, thanks for enriching my life in many ways. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0lMeihSWbxs

2 am saturday night sitting awake with laptop on I have thoughts to fight and gauge whats right So I keep thinking on and on tonight. Projects to be done and books to be read but I gaze on cause there are things to be said. cheerful as gay and a smile ear to ear thats what people say but they dont see it clear. My heart is full but my valet is light for love is all i can give at will till my time is right. I keep forgetting its the material world I still keep believing that love could mend and all we need is some time to spend. I walk with dreams and sleep with nightmares I chase them all day like a dog and they croak all night like a frog. With millions friends to help and million hearts to cheer I keep hoping things would be better Its not easy when u give it all up for what u love may not fill today's cup I am tired and may lose to those black thoughts on the loose for words killed my smiles today and laughing so loud, but behold...

"Chichu mama, eppo enna pannum" ( uncle whats now ?) "nee school ponum " ( you must go to school) "Appo evening collage okya" (can we do collage in the evening ?) "ok for sure" "Ok chichu mama, bye poren" , and after the exchange of ample amount of flying kiss. " come soon ok ? " It doesn't matter whether he is leaving for school or I am going out, its always come soon for him. "chichu mama down poi tata pannanum "  (say bye when I go down). We live in 10th floor and his day care is nearby. The view to the long road is quite clear from lobby and vice verse. So  for the next few minutes we keep waving to each other making funny faces. The bittersweet feeling of watching him go is hard to explain. Back home, Everytime I leave my home, my parents would make it a point to send me off  from the gate. They would wait patiently until I walk the whole street. The good bye is never complete without a waving from t...