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U smile !  that's what you do when someone takes a photograph of you, unless there is a good reason behind it, perhaps a death ( although I wonder who would take a picture of in that moment) or if you have made a eternal pact, not to smile at the person behind the camera. On the other side, why to smile while being photographed ? cant we own the weirdest-custom-made expression that we carry on our face ? I pondered on it, while my photo was taken last night in the Christmas mass at a church here. The photographer is a warden in her early 40 , dressed elegantly in black gown , lush red lipstick and a hair clip and shoes that had feathers in it .she must be from the high class. She seem to be interested to capture the patrons who turned up for the special mass. As she made her way back to her seat her heals drummed the floor, It was loud enough to be heard in the packed church.  Before I could reach a conclusion about...

Happy birthday Singapore, thanks for enriching my life in many ways. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0lMeihSWbxs

2 am saturday night sitting awake with laptop on I have thoughts to fight and gauge whats right So I keep thinking on and on tonight. Projects to be done and books to be read but I gaze on cause there are things to be said. cheerful as gay and a smile ear to ear thats what people say but they dont see it clear. My heart is full but my valet is light for love is all i can give at will till my time is right. I keep forgetting its the material world I still keep believing that love could mend and all we need is some time to spend. I walk with dreams and sleep with nightmares I chase them all day like a dog and they croak all night like a frog. With millions friends to help and million hearts to cheer I keep hoping things would be better Its not easy when u give it all up for what u love may not fill today's cup I am tired and may lose to those black thoughts on the loose for words killed my smiles today and laughing so loud, but behold...

"Chichu mama, eppo enna pannum" ( uncle whats now ?) "nee school ponum " ( you must go to school) "Appo evening collage okya" (can we do collage in the evening ?) "ok for sure" "Ok chichu mama, bye poren" , and after the exchange of ample amount of flying kiss. " come soon ok ? " It doesn't matter whether he is leaving for school or I am going out, its always come soon for him. "chichu mama down poi tata pannanum "  (say bye when I go down). We live in 10th floor and his day care is nearby. The view to the long road is quite clear from lobby and vice verse. So  for the next few minutes we keep waving to each other making funny faces. The bittersweet feeling of watching him go is hard to explain. Back home, Everytime I leave my home, my parents would make it a point to send me off  from the gate. They would wait patiently until I walk the whole street. The good bye is never complete without a waving from t...

Singapore is.. Where Chinese who lives in Malaysia, and Malay who lives in Singapore have similar customs. Its safe to drink tap water and yet most of them buy mineral water bottle (which now believed to have harmful chemicals) Tipping a taxi driver or anyone is considered an insult! People get pissed off when train takes a second or two to open the doors to the platform. Pedestrian thinks pressing the signal umpteen times would make it green soon. Rickshaw tours are still popular. -----------you can find public toilet almost anywhere :)----------- you can see devoted chinese in Ganapathi temples and Indians in Budda temple . The second part mostly involves cannon camera (those with big lenses which looks exactly like the big cannons at war) shutterbugs. People take part in walking, running and sometimes shaving the head ,not to win but only to donate money to charities. Men walk around completely "free" in swimming pool shower rooms. Milo can be decl...

Dear you, Cant believe I am writing this from Singapore. At one point i really packed my dream in a big suitcase and kept it  in the loft. Was walking around with clown over my head. The visa , the students loan, I couldn't wrap my mind around the whole thing. I am now a Master degree student in Raffles Singapore! Feels great to say it, even more to write it.  The feeling is bittersweet, still settling. Change of country and new college , new syllabus, profs, class mates whoaaa! And the best thing that happened to me is the feeling of being loved by my Friends! I am really amazed by the generosity and kindness they have showed me. I had to show a bank balance of the total fee required to finish the course for the visa process.  I was depending on the loan to come , which would take days to finish. I made few phone calls and money just flowed into my account from everywhere. In matter of few days I have become a privileged customer of ICICI Bank :P ...

Dear you, My final exams have started today, seems like yesterday , that I started talking about quiting my IT job. Its been one hell of a ride and I already see that this is what I meant to do. It feels so natural! As much as I enjoyed working in IT, i think i missed this life. Where I can wake up and sleep on my own schedule and do very crazy stuff. Being designer is looking for beauty and inspiration in all that I see, and this has increased my spectrum of taste.The need to experience new stuff and enjoy all that is different is so interesting.  Its been more than a year and few months now and I am passing out my diploma this month. Being wild dreamer , I have applied for one of the best design schools to do masters. Yes! if I am going to do something, I am going to do it right.  To affirm that ,  The Raffles design school - singapore, has evaluated my portfolio and have accepted my application. My teachers are proud and so am I. Since my dad is pries...

Remember the time someone said something to you and you couldn't get it out of your head. Probably you will end up all night thinking about why he/she said that in the first place. Like a old gramophone record it goes on and on, and every time you would try to come up with better answers or insults you could have possibly given to the other party. Yeah thats exactly I am talking about! Understanding : I remember this story from a teacher who taught me meditation. A old man accompanied by two children was sitting in the railway station. The kids were making noises, jumping around, and fighting with each other. A disturbed commuter asked the old man to keep the kids silent. To which he replied, I dont know how to control them , they lost their mother this morning.  What seemed like a pure angry and irritation turned into sympathy and love for the kids. Thats the power of understanding. As much as we want to put ourselves first and declare what a pri...

Its almost the 10th time I have opened this window to type a new post. The first line of the post is like the opening sentence to the girl in the bar. It might either go way better than you think or fall flat on your face. And then comes the second line, now that you got the attention, its important to say something smart. Have you played angry birds ?  ( ok not so smart but questions do help). If you are not familiar with this iPhone game you might as well ask my mother ( she is yet to return my iPod touch, thanks to gaming addiction).  I always found the direct hit on the pigs or the castle wont help to finish the game. The trick lies in finding the exact point, when hit would start a domino type demolition effect. A catalyst shot for the ripple effect. Many ideologies say your current state of life depends on your current state of mind , which is sum of your positive and negative thoughts. By tipping the scale of positive th...

Hey there, Two friends met after what seemed to be eternity. They both used to spend hours after hours chatting about each other's life and zillion things under the sun.  Not all  interests were similar, in fact the ones that arent made their conversation much more interesting. During some of their darkest time, both stuck to each other proving  friends are the best shrink anyone can get. Then life happened.  The only thing to do was accept it and shuffle and recreate their priorities. What once a beautiful time together  became a distant, yet sweet memory in the heart.  There were million ways to be in touch yet they drifted apart carried by the strong current of life. One fine day it happened, they met. There must be something in the stars, or perhaps sheer fate or just a random power cut in the evening. Like the one that happens during Indian summer, where watching stars in the terrace in the cooling breeze is the best thing to ...